Wednesday, May 30, 2007
it has been quite a bad year for me. i started to realise nothing has been going smooth for me since the start of the year. i entered a JC den the orientation was bad. the school workload was heavy and tough. basketball was sheepish and i was forced to join the next coolest sport, or i think tat interest me, RUGBY. i got into a class tat got wierdo and the subject combi is not the 1 i wan. as the year goes, things began to look bad on me- i didnt mingle well with my classmates and my classmates doesnt really seem to like me on top of that, my class was of bad reputation among the teachers. all the tests i had done to my best but yet i still failed BADLY. in rugby i also didnt mingle well with my teammates and i juz cant seem to get the footwork and tactics right. other miscellous stuff like random of numbers or juz some normal stuff, it also seem to go wrong. so far, nothing i have done s have seem to be moving correctly for me. i had done my best in everything i do but yet, i failed in everything i do. it is really agonising. God has turn His back against me, wad can i do??? i give up. i had given my best and if this is the result i am gonna get den wad the point of doing my best? might as well juz don do, anyway the result will be the same. God, if u r not gonna help me, i am gonna help myself. all these is not all. there are still more to all these curse. i juz don wish to elaborate further.
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Monday, May 28, 2007
shit i suddenly cannot think properly. i had this simple msg and i dunnno how to reply to it. m i crumpling under pressure and stress? i m really afraid man. i cannt let my brain cells die lyk tat. i cant go insane. i will not go INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will chill and i will decide where i wanna go. i will do my best these 2 years and i will go all the way. NO FEAR, GOD WILL BE HERE.
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Tuesday, May 22, 2007
today is really a torture man. today i woke up at 1130 and i slpt at 12 last nite i dunno y i am so tired. wierd. today is a hw day for me i told myself tat i am gonna complete the hw tat i was given by today. man, the math is enough to kill me. i tot the math is gonna be a piece of cake. i was so so so damn wrong. it was so damn hard la. i do until qn 3 i cannot continue le. den i finished 1 case study on economics. now i am gonna do my geo. GEO is lame wan us do research on rocks and do a mindmap on it. DAMN THE LYSLEY LEE man. i still got PW i nid to do sia. due on fri. i start to realsie JC is not easy to study man. but i don wanna go poly bcos alot of grpwork and i don lyk to do grp work de. i prefer loneranger. i am giving up already la. but i really wanna pray tat God will give me wisdom to carry on this JC education so tat i can have bright future and of cos glorify His kingdom and help my fellow brothers and sister. JC MATHS seriously makes my brain sizzle. haiz. God!! WISDOM NEEDED!!!!
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
today is a big day for me. today is the day i died and rose up again new in God. i have been water baptised!!!!! AMEN!!! it is a declaration of my conviction and commitment to God. alot of my good friends came to support me. but the wierd thing is that my shepherd didnt come. it i a sunday btw so he couldnt be busy. hmmm but wadeva i don care anyway. i was really nervous when i was in the water. but after i was baptised, i felt new and fresh, as if i was a newborn child.
we took alot of photos and videos. Sherms, Jogina, Jolene, Aaron, Yong Mei, Yan Shi came and support me. i was very happy. i tot i would be alone there being baptised. thanks you all, i relaly appreciate ur presences and witnessing my water baptism. thank you:)
My old self had died and i am a newborn in Christ. everything of my life is a fresh start. My name, Zechariah, means the apple of God's eyes(according to jogina), would be really true in my new life. i had been quite a jinx in my past life so in this new life, i wanna be a blessing to everyone around me and i serioously pray that my spiritual walk with God would be vibrant and i can live by my new name, Zechariah:)
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wah. today is kinda interesting day for me. its been rare i had such an interesting day. haha. it is fun though. it would be realy fun and exciting to have some of these days in my life. today i went for svc and usher duty and there i was trained to be a usher leader. hmmm quit fun being an ushering leader. haha. den tooday worship quite minstering. my prayer came true. i prayed for a touch from God and i realy did have, everyone did. the worship was good, ppl knelt and ppl sing with their hearts.the teaching was meaningful and entertaining as well. den after that i went to pay lan with my cg ppl. i told them i wnana go toilet first den i saw two girls standing outside the door leading to the toilet, they were smoking, den i didnt care much and i went to the toilet. on the way back, they approached me and asked for my number. i was taken aback. it has been the third time already man. sians. but nvm i quickly give and i went to play my lan. haha. after that we went to PS to eat dinner. den my cg ppl left first so i stayed around in PS to wait for sherms. den suddenly jogina called me and ask me where i m den she come and look for me alone. den we both went to DAISO and look around, juz the both of us. wierd. haha. but nvm she my good friend. haha.
tml i am gonna baptise in water already. i really unsure shld i baptise anot. cos i dont wanna baptise for the sake of a new name but truely i wanna die in christ and resurrect as a new person. yup. so i prayed thru and i believe tat baptising is an act of obedience and of cos after so long being a christian, i noe where my heart and soul belong, so water baptism will be a spiritual act for me and as a declaration tat i am a christian and i LOVE God in public. God, after i am baptised, i sincerely wanna be a new person, a person tat has turn over a new leaf and anew in YOU. Amen:)
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Friday, May 18, 2007
today is a short day for me man. today dismissed at 230. i never release so early from sch for quite long. mon till 4, tues till 5, weds till 8(rugby), thurs till 10 (cg), fri 8plus(rugby). today don have rugby cos the rugger did well for the match against JJ. although we lost, but our guys put up a great battle. therefore, Mr kwok decided to give the ruggers a break and have training on sat instead. we will be facing SRJC on mon. today i really spent a good time in class with a few of my classmates. we were singing out hearts out in class and we really built alot of relationshiup juz now. quite fun la. hhaha. the song tat i rarely sing, 'TUI HOU' i also sing it. haha.
there is this singing competition coming up and my classmates r egging me to join the competition. but i of cos refuse. i wont wan to do tis kinda of stuff. haha. but under forced cicumstances den maybe i will consider. but mayb i will enter as a duet wiht FANGYI. hahahaha. i think we make good duets. hahah. well i wonder when the comepetion will be and i don really care. i wonder PJ got any singing prodigy. HMMMM i wonder.... we shall face it off in the competition ba. ;)
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
its been long since i had blog. i really have no time for anything ma. today is seriously exceptionally tat i can find time out to blog something. look at the time! it is 1030 already. haiz had to shorten my entry. its been long since i seen my EC and i promised tat i wanna say hi to her but i didnt do it in the end. maybe i was shy or feeling emo ba. i dont like to do this kind of 'Woo-girl stuff'. it is lame. i rather wait for girls to come up to me den i consider them. i noe i m quite an asshole to say until lyk tat, but tats the way i am. Wooing girls is seriously not my style and expertise man. actually i jzu wanna stay single and stay cool. to me nothing matters more than my studies already. i juz wanna get thru this two years of JC smoothly and graduate to a good uni course den from there, i will look for a real life partner. haha but wadeva mess around first ba. hahahahahaha. ok final words b4 i leave, GOD I AM TIRED:(
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Sunday, May 13, 2007
ah... i finally got a new blog skin. it look abit shabby and run down but nevertheless it is a brand new blogskin. THANK YOU VIVIAN!!! she is the one who help me find the blogskins. haha. i like it veyr much personally. actually i have a page where i can post my entries can le.
OMG i finally talked to my EC already. so happy. she is lyk my old friend man. i first time talk to her and she started to pour out her deepest secret to me. i was kinda taken aback at first but i decided to comfort her all the way and give her advice on wad she shld do. haha. yup. happy to have talked to my EC. but i am gonna move in quick or else she is gonna be snatched away.hahha but wadeva. i dun really care,
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Monday, May 07, 2007
today i did a revamp on my image. i wore contact lenses to sch and cut my hair and i even bring a new bag to school. haha. today is really a quite good day for me i think. i see my EC almost lyk the whole day in close proximity. so happy.. hahah. early in the morning i saw her walking to sch and she was rite behind me. haha. den during recess i saw her again and she was lyk juz sitting the table next to ours !!! den after sch, we went to watch spiderman 3 den she was also taking the same bus home with us!!! wah. so good man!!! haha. i really lyk get to see her up close today/ haha. so happy. LONG LIVE EC!!! hahahhaha.
Spiderman was quite nice in fact i shld say. we bought this popcorn which is so so big. tat the 5 of us nearly could not finish, and the popcorn only cost lyk around 5 or 6bucks only. we juz maded it in time for hte show actually. haha. it was fun watching. ahha. the last scene was quite touching and i nearly teared. haha. ok gtg now. i am gonna get to know my EC better in the days to come. MUHAHAHHA!
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Tuesday, May 01, 2007
haha y i keep thihnking today is sunday nite? today i finally able to find time to blog. today is labour day and i took this time to send time with my 3 best friends: marcus, aaron and joe han. we had a great nite studying(cos aaron having xams.) and playing. haha. we also had a great time together haha. and i had the whole master bedroom to myself. hahaha. after i went home, it is all work and back to reality again. i have to chiong the GPP for the PW and the worst is tat no one sent me their part of the GPP. Do they have a sense of urgency anot?? sians. den i work work work till now when i finally fcompleted. haha. den i can sit down and blog abit. fangyi came to my blog and say my blog is full of my EC haha. but nvm i don mind. hahaha.ok gonna dl steam now and start on my CS rampage. bye!
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