Friday, August 31, 2007
today is teachers day eve and alot of students would go back to their former sch to visit their teachers and catching up with their former sch friends. i did the same thing as most students did. after my sch concert which was kinda ended late but howver the concert was the best teacher's day concert i had ever seen and my CHEM teacher dressed damn nice man. HE OWN man. haha. i was trying to get a photo of him but a pity we sat too far to snap a good photo of him. hahah. i was tryin yo flag a taxi down but apparently everyone is doing the same thing and i cant get a cab so i too a bus instead even though i was late. when i was reaching my friend called and told me tat all ym teacher has left. i was so sad. but when i reach the bus stop, just nice some of my teachers came to the bus stop. we caught up a little and we talked quite a bit. haha. how lucky i was. after tat i went to a nearby coffee shop to eat with my seondary sch friends. we had alot to talk abt and alot of things to fill in one another. when i told them how bad my results was despite desperate trying so hard. instead of rubbing it in or questioning about my abilites, they comforted me and encouraged me. i nvr expected tat from them man. out of so many ppl, it was my secondary school friends tat would comfort me, encourage and motivate me in the end. so amazed. they were lyk, " next yr we dont wanna see u in poly man!! DON U DARE COME." i was lyk so touched and encouraged man. we spend quite a lot of time just sitting at the coffee shop talking and reminscing about our sec sch life and asking how the others r doing and consulting of how each other life is doing. for them, i would give it my very best shot at promos,even if it kills me.
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Sunday, August 26, 2007
today svc is abt P&W. i really learnt alot from it today as i grow as a musician or just a music lover. i had learnt to worship God and focus my eyes on him and not the focus and worship the music.Goood music is good but deep worship is even better:) as i reflect upon my christian walk with God, wad i really enjoy serving God with is with my musical talents by playing guitar for cg or playing drums for the church, i really enjoyed it man. i would really wan to advance and be a good drummer for the church and play for p&w. it is not for my own self glorification, but for God's hand to move thru my music. i noe where i am headed for and i will try my very best to grasp any opprotunites to play as a drummer in church so now i have to prepare myself b4 i can really play on stage. today studied witmy cg ppl as wel. i don noe how to do a single math question man, and for 2hrs i only do lyk 3 qns. i am really lyk pathetic. i m such a goner for maths man. i think i better buck up for chem and econs man. they r the only 2 subjects tat can help me thru my promos. GOTTA CHIONG. i pray God would bring me thru man. today God spoke to me in service finally since a veyr long time and i am really glad tat He spoken to me. he said, ''Even though you walk through the valley of the shadow of death,YOU will fear no evil,for I am withYOU;MY rod and MY staff,they comfort YOU.'' was reallly refreshed by God tat he finally spoken to me. was so happy.
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Friday, August 24, 2007
end of the week is here again!!! finally this week has been fairly a good week for me, Go dhas been smiling on my side this week and i am really thankful for that. Thank You God. hahahha., this week has been a blessing. i don really quite rmb much buit i knew tat i reflected much on my JC life. on thurs, during econs tutorial, i suddenly started to reflect upon my JC life, since the first day i step into this college.i had nvr pass a single test ever man. it was damn tramatising and i really think of giving up at the moment. for a split moment i think i shld had gone poly when i had been offered the chance. failing and failing and failing tests isnt a really good thing to go thru. i was so emo for the rest of the day man. i tot thru alot of stuff during that econs tutorial and i really straighten out my thoughts. i had to do wad i can for this period of time. even if i cant promote at the end of the yr, at least i can say with no regrets tat i had already put in my best. and i had to resign to fate and God's destiny for me. no one really knew how hard it was to promote and how stress the curiculum is, and u had to endure all this all by myself. it is really a torture and i pray tat God will bring me thru this crisis, and may the Lord grace shine upon me forever more. Thank You Jesus:)
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Sunday, August 19, 2007
ahhhhh i friday didnt blog. i didnt reach home so early and i was very tired after i reached home so i decided to not blog and do some admin and misc stuff. recently this week i had been studying veyr hard man. i came home since tues, around 9 plus man. it is kinda fulfilling but yet tiring. haha. i stayed back for night study almost eveyrday. it was a joy to study together with my friends in sch. and thank GOD tat he sent the correct people to study with. they really egg one another to study and we concentrate quite well togther. haha we had fun and yet we studyed hard together. i really hope i can promote to JC2 man. but even if i didnt promote at least i noe i done my best and i have no regrets. hahahhaa. PJC ppl r really irritating man, i really hated a huge bunch of ppl in sch. alot of PJ ppl r jus JC wannabes. they r not cut out to be a JC student and they wanna waste a space here and dilute the culture here. the PJ culture was so so so diluted bcos of them. there are a huge loads of them man. as their faces flashed thru my head, i m so filled with anger and hatred man. they sucks man!!! BIG TIME. i really hope alot of them would leave man. i cannot take it anymore man. there are too many eyesore in this sch. i cant resort to violence to solve this thing or else ppl will call me a chyna dude. i m no chyna, but alot of losers and chyna ppl come pj, and diluted the WHOLE sch. hate them man. i actually loved this sch when i was in 1st 3 mth but after tat i was so wrong. this new batch sucks lyk hell. chyna, losers, nerds, all those who shldnt be here all r here. DAMN THEM man. ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Y!!!!! a bunch of bitches and bastards!!!!
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today got this indian guy who made me missed my last bus and made me run a bustop and i missed the bus lyk jus 3 min bcos of HIM. damn it man. he suck dick. i was depositing money into my account and this indian guy wanna update his bankbook so he cut my queue, and the machine already told him he cant update as the updating time is over but he still wanna update and try again. wasted my time. by the time i deposited my money and ran to the bus stop, the bus alreayd ran away alreayd. omg thank God tat my dad is not home yet if not he will kill me tenderly man. ASSHOLE DAMN INDIANS.ARGHHHH
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
saturday was just a normal service for me. the sermon was kinda newb but i think i still learnt something. hahaha. after service didnt stayed on for long as i nid to go back to bukit batok to celebrate tat BITCH MOM birthday. so sians man. i seriously don feel lyk celebrating for her man. she just sucks man. somehow how i was wired is to oppose her. i dunoo. just don lyk her man. how i wish i could quickly grow up and earn big bucks and leave this home and nvr come back agian.
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Friday, August 10, 2007
finally!!! it the end of the week for me!!! this week is kinda slack as this week is national day week. i made a decsion to stay on in JC. i noe it is a bad choice but all my friends and teacher encouraged me to do so except for 1 teacher who urge me to withdraw and bluff me there is a 2nd intake now in poly. OK there is acutally, but it is in temesek, how m i suppose to go there. OMG. i had decided to give it my all for this promos so i m gonna go low on my playing and having fun and church activities. I wanna give it my best shot. if i didnt make it at the end, at least i have no regrets. so forgive me for stepping down in my minstry bcos i don wan at the end of the day, i regret badly. its not tat i m unspiritual or wad, but it is just a form of responsibilty. MY DAMNED MOTHER was so overjoyed when she heard tat i wanted to continued in JC. she was so afraid of her own face man. bitch man. she is afraid of losing face to her friends and relatives tat i could not stay in a JC. big deal if u cant stay in JC. if u cant previously u r dumb, if u cant now, it is ok. if u can make it thru the JC, then u mus have sacrificed ur life and soul. this new syaballus is crazy man. it sucks the life outta the students man. u gotta do a project thruout the yr concurrently with ur 3H2 and 1 H1. don belittle this H1, u fail, u cant promote. ur H1 is a contrasting subject which is quite hard to pass it(if u r a science student, u must take a art subject). somemore u got GP to handle as well. u fail, u cant promote as well. on top of this, u still got ur CCAs to juggle with. WTH. the previous syaballus is just 3Alvl sub(not H2 different).and a A/o level sub(any) A/O is jus lyk O lvl standard jus abit harder only. H1 is H2 difficulty but less content. OMG. JC is crazy. it is either u r smart or u pay it with ur life and soul to make it to thru. haiz. all i ask now is to jus scrape thru J1 and go to 2 and complete my JC, i don wana waste a yr man. NO WAY.
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Sunday, August 05, 2007
today is a very devestating day for me. it is the day of truth and reality. it seems lyk i could not stay in a JC anymore. i had meet the parent session today and the teacher lay the cards b4 me, they don look really toward my advantage. they gave me a withdrawal form and asked me to consider over the week end. aaron and trhe rest who seen the teacher all cried or teared,but i just don feel anything. i noe i m sad,and could not take the facts, but i just cant expressed myself. i think i had made myself into a living robot. i have a heart, a cold heart. they wanted me to consider the poly route, but i m really hesistant abt it. i finally able to get into somewhere prestigious but i had to go to the poly?? haiz. i dun want. however the facts shows that i dun really have much of a choice. Finally out of Hong Kah and into somewhere decent and now i had to go to the poly and start from the scratch again. I really dun wanna withdraw but the cards laid b4 me arent really tat optimistic. i have tml to consider and mon i m gonna submit the form. i m really not sure wad i m gonna do, but i will think properly. GOD, pls help me. i really humbled myself b4 in this dark hours. if u dun help me, no 1 would. i nid ur wisdom and courage and strength.
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Friday, August 03, 2007
man.. finally it is the end of the week man!!! finally can let out a sigh of relief and loosen up abit form school man. this week i dun have much hw so i can relax quite abit. hahahhaha. cool ar. but i got quite a few tests coming up and promos r lyk 2 mths away. i cant afford to totally shut off, i nid to still study not abit, but quite diligently during this period of time. canot slack man. hmmm i really got not much time to spare to blog daily man, i think i decided to blog during the fridays and sat of the week man. really in nid of time man. no time to play and slack. but just time to rest. hahahhaa. i got minstry, work, CCA(mayb not) and travel. i think travelling really takes up alot of my time man. ZZZZ. hahah.
this week was quite ok and Mr tan seem to be lightening up abit and began to show less hostility to our class. Phewsss... today i just bought my POLO TEE. FINALLY!!!! u dun nid to tuck ur polo tee in and it looks fine for me. but it is kinda stuffy when u wear cos the heat is all trappeed in the body. dunno y. this week is really a tiring week for me, i had been having isomina since mon and i hardly get to slp well and enough. when i reached home and getting ready to bath, i would lie on the bed for a while and unknowingly, i would doze off. ok tml i maby getting my HARRY POTTER 7th book. so excited and happy. thanks! and tml there is FOP. dun think i will be going. either after service i will go home to study to compensate of the time loss during tues, or i will spend some time with sherman and friends. if sherms is going den i left with 1 choice, go home and study, which i really do not mind. LOL. mayb i would just bring some stuff out and study at some fastfood restaurant since there is air conditioning. my house doesnt have air con. hmmm i will see home tml.
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