today was christmas svc. i didnt really enjoy myself well cos i was ushering. den i went for the christmas party at sentosa, it was crap as well. i was so bored by it. most of my prayers today aint fulfiled. i dunno y. is it i no faith or wad. WAD HAPPEN GOD! haiz. nvm, not blaming anyone, jus don understand y. sherman didnt got better from his emoness. i was quite guilty. i didnt spend much time with him and i kinda neglected him jus now at the party. sians... den he went off on his own. ARGH. he wasnt really touched by the svc. totall opposite of wad i prayed. the christmas party wasnt really fun, the food was average and it wasnt really alot. it is not worth my 16bucks man. the standard of this church is getting from bad to worse. haiz...
i had a great chat with SANDY, i finally able to pour out my deepest feelings and sorrow to someone. i really nid someone to talk to. someone who would understand and give me the ans i wanna hear. she told me new findings and i was kinda devasted by them. but haiz. i was so sure. tat is the main point. i wouldnt be so sad if i wasnt so sure. DAMN IT!
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