Saturday, January 26, 2008
AHHH. when the bell of the last lesson of friday rung, i let out a sigh of relief. another hectic week has ended. well it has been a rather moderate week for me. well, a week of blessings.
firstly, i had a rather fruitful mon and tues. i managed to closen up the gap between my new classmates. but somehow i lost my concentration power. i drift off very easily and i cant seem to get the topics taught. it is getting harder and harder!! GOD i need UR WISDOM!
weds i went to donate blood. it was a first time for me and i m really nervous and excited abt it. wah, all the procedures make me more and more nervous. but the pain of the needle cannot overcome the warmth of my friends tat stood around my chair and say comforting stuffs and trying to distract me from the pain. i really appreciated it alot man. manage to talk to some of them and we really had a great chat around my chair. i can feel the warmth man. thank you guys, you guys brighten up my life.
thurs i had cg but it is a dinner. before tat it was raining heavily and i cant get out of school. so i went into the library and talk to sanji for a while. den as we talk we got better and we kinda lyk open to one another already. we talk quite a while and we became FRIENDS not acquiantances. cg dinner was alright and we had quite a good laugh.
friday was really a good day. i continue to build my relationship with sanji and i hope it is getting better. Econs test was kinda bad, i think i m gonna flunk it la. den i went to gym with sanji after sch. wah training with him really helps. den i went down to woodlands to buy my guitar and ipod. i bought my guitar and it is really cheap and really good. and u noe wad? it is the last piece. OMG!! den i went to buy my ipod, it is the last piece also!!! but it is reserved so i gonna check back on mon to see whether i can get it. I PRAY GOD U LET ME HAVE IT! PLS!!!!!! my creative is kinda cranky and i nid to change already. GOD HELP!!!
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Friday, January 18, 2008
another week has come to an end. well it started alright but it ended kinda bad. mon tues and weds was fairly ok. it was rather good and peaceful and everything went smoothly. but thurs and today was kinda bad.
had cg on thurs. b4 cg i dunno wad has gotta into everyone and they started scolding on another, getting pissed over the slightly thing. we prepare zixin bdae and thus we are late. i was so reluntant to do something for her bdae man. but in the end we still do something la. on the bus to cg venue, aaron began telling me what a GREAT leader zixin was. how caring, how sacrifical, how loving she is. i heard each scenario and each case, the more i felt indignant. i m lyk, where has her promises to the grp gone to??? den i realise, all she do was jus plain talking. NO ACTIONS, NO NOTHING. i felt myself dragging to pray for her bdae wishes. school on thurs wasnt really good as well. i got scolded by my chem teacher for making a mistake for the first time. she didnt even give me a chance to amend myself. mind you, i m in this class for 3 weeks only and she didnt tell us her expectations for us. WTH. JASIMA REALLY SUCK.
today is just as bad. i finally able to mix with the guys. but somehow there is this premonition in me tat something bad is gonna happen or their gesture is fake. and today i tried my all to control, but in the end i still did it. tat is why my day crashed.
i had always tried to be kind to ppl. but i realised thru this week tat it doesnt pay to be kind and keep a lookout for others. they all just took me for granted and they took advantage of me. they know i will always do the 'dirty' work, so they always wan me to do it. i seriously wasted my time worrying for ppl and helping those ingrates. all i m asking for is just don hurt me. i m not asking u guys to pay me back or anything. BUNCH OF ASSHOLES. from today onwards u all can go die for all i care. i m just gonna keep a lookout for myself only. HELL WITH U ALL.
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
today was a rather packed but fulfilling day for me. i had fun and i had work. haha. first in the morning i went out to go and eat with Aaron, Jerel, Dewen, Kai En and Gordon at city hall there. we had some dim sum buffet. We eat until we explode sia. it was damn shiok. hahah. it been long i had eaten so full. and we had so much laughter and we laugh so loudly tat the whole restaurant can hear us. we are damn spastic and extreme. the thought of it makes me wanna laugh! HAHAHAHA! damn we(aaron me kai en and gordon) went to esplanade to just sit down and chill out. we had fun reminsciencing abt our hong kah days and we talk alot of crap. haha. it was really fun. den at 3.30 i nid to go for jamming at tanjong pagar. . i reach there on time but te rest was late so we kinda jam a while only. we had a special guest called JESSIE. i dunno y she was there but she made me feel uneasy. den keith damn bad to dinesh. he asked dinesh to carry his stuff and set up the equipment for him as though he is his servant. to me this jamming session isnt really fun for me at all. the drumset at Lcube sucks and ppl r late and there is this special guest tat makes me feel uneasy. in addition, i was pretty tired. so it wasnt a really good jam for me. the songs we played aint very sychronized or very good. it was jus anyhow play, anyhow strike a note. i was rather pissed and disappointed la. den on the way home i was rather quiet as i was tired. den i reached home, i bath and i started studying geog cos there is a test on tues! DAMN IT! today was a fruitful day and i enjoyed it, especially the dim sum part. it was damn fun. i wouldnt mind having another session lyk tat. hahah.
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Friday, January 11, 2008
a week has passed and i had yet to fit into my new class. though there are more communications between one another and less tensions in the presences of one another, it is still hard to break into the cliques. but it is gonna get better. i knew it. workload has been average so far, and i haven been really studying. all i was doing was playing drums and have fun and slacking. i felt abit guilty over it. but seriously i really nothing to do. i completed my assignments and i had revised my work. thankfully i asked my friends and they too are having the same problem as me. HAHAH. so all of us are on the same boat. today i got back my first test on economics. not exactly a test but my first marked work of the year. guess how much i got?? i got 8/13!! man it is a B!!!! i cant believe it. i look around and i got better than most of my classmates. it is a pretty good start to a new acadamic year. i hope i can continue to get such good grades for the rest of the year. GOD HELP ME IN THIS YEAR! i would nid more of Your sovereignty in my life and more grace and more wisdom!!!
CG was ok this week. i led sermon D and to me i think it was a disaster. no one really listened to me and i had a hard time getting their attention rather than teaching. it is really bad man. den Zixin still commended me for doing a good job. i think i totally ruined the sermon la. seriously. i didnt impart wad i want to impart and ppl jus take it as a chit chat session. u noe wad matthais do when i ask them to discuss to their partners of a particular qn i gave them? he was busy seizing this opportunity to chit chat to his partner, Aaron. so much for a leader huh? wad a 'GREAT' example he has demostrated.
this week has been an alright week with me. i tot it would be disastrous with the heavy workload and new friends to make and cg to take care, but in the end God took care of most of them for me. thank You God.
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Sunday, January 06, 2008
tml is a new week. a real JC2 week and not some orientation feeling Jc2. i wonder how will it be like. i noe the first 3 days of sch has been rather slack, i m catching none of the winds of JC2. tml woudl eb the real first week of school. i duno how it will be like. but i think i m not really ready. i had been rather slack man. i study but yet i also play alot. i shld study alot more than i play man. i cant afford to slack this yr man. i will give my life this yr to chiong for my studies! but first i gotta make some friends man. if not it is gonna be so hard to survive in this new class. i gotta break into the guys clique. I GOT TO!!!! ok i gonna slp soon and i hope God will path my way for THIS YEAR! GOD HELP ME!
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Friday, January 04, 2008
man wasnt i excited to go to sch man. every morning was very cold and i shiver everytime when i came out of the bathroom after a morning shower and i dunno y i always wear a singlet to slp. back to school at JC2 was not a bad start for me. except i had to wake up very early and slp very little again. i have new class, 07S06, new teachers, new friends, new vision, new goal and of cos, new challenges. the moment i step into 07s06 i noe this is gonna be a fun class. i somehow felt an attachment to this class even i was just in this class for 3 days.hahaha. the class isnt really very united as one, but there is a alot of cliques. the unity within the clique is strong. so its a good and bad thing for me la. its shows unity, but its hard for me to break into it. somemore this class has very little guys, only 6 of us. but the guys r rather friendly and they accepts me into the MALE gang. haha. i felt so awekward going around classes with girls, and i cant feel the topics they r on. haha. the teachers have new expectations for us and are more stricter than b4. i say i've got better teachers than i have in s12.
JC2 is really not a easy yr man. i heard all the teachers telling us, Jc2 is gonna be hell for us and it is gonna kill us. truthfully, i am kinda scared. i scared i cannot even stay thruout in Jc2. i nearly couldnt make it for Jc1, i noe the feeling of not able to advance. it is really scary. i also haven been studying much, i had been more occupied by the computer and the drums and slacking. i m really scared man. but when teachers ask qns, i can ans them. but i noe it is gonna be alot different doing exams qns. haiz. i really dunno how to start studying and help myself. i pray God would give me a direction and guide me thru this studying craze. GOD HELP ME.
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Tuesday, January 01, 2008
HEY ITS A NEW YEAR!!!! finally i send away 2007 and welcome 2008! i was rather happy when 2007 ended. it has been a problematic and rather sad 2007 for me. i daresay it was one of my worst year in my life.its the first time i felt wad is real stress. i noe 2008 would be double the stress, tat is definite, but i hope it would be a good year regardless of the amount of workload and stress i have to handle. may God bless my 2008. i hope i would be able to get thru A levels quickly and easily. God nid to help me man. really really nid to! haha. i cannot do this on my own. i nid God's wisdom, anioting, power and strength and courage. i nid every dose of God's power to get thru this year. most imptly, this yr i wanna spend it happily. last yr was kinda emo for me, i didnt felt happy or joyous, so i wanna start this yr with great joy and attitude!! its a brand new beginning, without any bad things of 2007, i m gonna march into 2008 with a victorious mindset and i m gonna have joy in my heart for this year!
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