another week has come to an end. well it started alright but it ended kinda bad. mon tues and weds was fairly ok. it was rather good and peaceful and everything went smoothly. but thurs and today was kinda bad.
had cg on thurs. b4 cg i dunno wad has gotta into everyone and they started scolding on another, getting pissed over the slightly thing. we prepare zixin bdae and thus we are late. i was so reluntant to do something for her bdae man. but in the end we still do something la. on the bus to cg venue, aaron began telling me what a GREAT leader zixin was. how caring, how sacrifical, how loving she is. i heard each scenario and each case, the more i felt indignant. i m lyk, where has her promises to the grp gone to??? den i realise, all she do was jus plain talking. NO ACTIONS, NO NOTHING. i felt myself dragging to pray for her bdae wishes. school on thurs wasnt really good as well. i got scolded by my chem teacher for making a mistake for the first time. she didnt even give me a chance to amend myself. mind you, i m in this class for 3 weeks only and she didnt tell us her expectations for us. WTH. JASIMA REALLY SUCK.
today is just as bad. i finally able to mix with the guys. but somehow there is this premonition in me tat something bad is gonna happen or their gesture is fake. and today i tried my all to control, but in the end i still did it. tat is why my day crashed.
i had always tried to be kind to ppl. but i realised thru this week tat it doesnt pay to be kind and keep a lookout for others. they all just took me for granted and they took advantage of me. they know i will always do the 'dirty' work, so they always wan me to do it. i seriously wasted my time worrying for ppl and helping those ingrates. all i m asking for is just don hurt me. i m not asking u guys to pay me back or anything. BUNCH OF ASSHOLES. from today onwards u all can go die for all i care. i m just gonna keep a lookout for myself only. HELL WITH U ALL.
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
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