another week has come to an end. i m feeling rather emo rite now. this is a veyr bad way to end off the week man. this friday is the worst friday i had ever since the start of the year.
when i come to sch, i had to squeeze with others, den i rushed to sch to shit cos i having tummyache. den for math i had been dazing and we had so many test today. during recess we couldnt find places to sit. den after sch was even worst. i had consultation with ms tng. it was the worst consultation i ever had, i seriously wasted my time. i got snapped at by sanji, den i dun understand a single thing wad ms tng explained and the way she explain is as though i m a retard or something. den i told her abit of s12 thing den she flared up at me, saying i m not unworthy but as good enough as the rest, i was touched but also hurted. den it was cross country. i had no1 to run with. NOBODY. den i saw my cg ppl. den walked with them abit, den i did the most poseur thing. i run very fast past the girls den i stopped after tat. i was so ashamed after i think abt it. by the time i realised i m able to make it into the top 100, it was already too late. when i run past kester, i overheard him gossiping abt me. saying i hate everyone in the sch la, bla bla bla. den i had no one to go home with after the cross country afterwards as well.
i tot thru alot on the way back home. i tot i was loved by everyone and ppl think i m handsome etc, but i was so wrong. if ppl really love me, y i have no 1 to run with during cross country? why i have to go home alone? in fact i think i m jus a poseur. i tot i was somebody finally, but in fact i m nobody. worse than nobody in fact. i came home till now i had been emo and slient. i tried to divert my attention, but it worked slightly. i didnt do my quiet time and i didnt spend time with God and i deliberately sin against him and i delibrately don ask for forgiveness. i already come to a point tat i dun care. He can punish me for all i care, i m already in dire strait already, wad else could be worse?
the other days of the week? don bother, they r nothing compared to today.
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