another week has gone and i m here to blog again. well this week has been rather average. nothing much really happened. just tat it is the start of JAE and new J1 are coming in. woah, this year's J1 are rather enthu and they r really high at orientation. but today i really wanna blog abt my cg and some random stuff.
well this week cg has been rather unfruitful. after cg i felt more unspiritual, supposely the opposite. we celebrated kester's bdae in his hse since it was his bdae on sat. cg was damn bad, worship wasnt prepared well, teaching no one was really listening and it wasnt really fun at all. Zixin was doing her self emo routine, excluding herself as usual. anyway, kester bdae party was prepared by his parents, we did nothing but eat. i dare confirm zixin dunno abt kester's bdae. not a clue. i seriously feel pity for this cg. i rather don go for cg seriously. i can use my time to study my weaker subjects. i wasted my time nvm, but i feel more unspiritual afterwards. tat is bad.
well, another thing is Redemption is disbanded,sort of. SHERMAN AND KEITH joined another band or created, called RocketQueen. man, i bought drums jus to practice for Redemption and they joined another band?! WTH. SHERMAN is really an asshole. he got into YWAM after being kinda unspiritual for a few months. i sometimes really wonder, i slog my ass off for God and all the good things goes to the people who jus do nothing and get all the credit. i start to feel this church is so fake and wad they say r jus pack of lies. ppl r having bgr and they r lyk ok with it and God is lyk blessing them and etc, people r not doing any shit and they r getting all the credit and blessings. as for me, i do more than at least they do, i got so so little blessings. this makes me wonder whether God is real and how effective the church is functioning rite now. this is so unjust ok, not unfair. this really sucks man, it really makes me wanna backslide and do my own things and forget it since no matter how hard i do, God dun bless me. they say no bgr. but now all the pretty girls are all being snatched up by others, all i can do is watch them go otu with their bf. this seriously sucks. mayb i shld consider wad aaron is doing. this churhc is getting from bad to worse.
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