TGIF. THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY. finally this week has came to an end. i had nvr hoped for an week to end tat soon b4. this is one of the worst week tat i had man. it was really very bad.
monday- no school.
tuesday- got back most of my results and i got an low U for my maths and econs case study. i was feeling damn emo tat day. i put in alot of efforts trying to do my best for common test.
wednesday- for 5 hrs of lessons i got scolded badly and on the way home i was rather sian and all. got back a GP graded assignment and i was the lowest in class.
thursday- cg. ppl r lyk wierd and zixin scolded us lyk mad jus because we were hungry and go and eat first without informing her. WTH, so wad u r a leader? don throw ur weights around at us lyk tat.
friday- i tot it would be better. i got back my GP and Econs essay, all U. it means tat i had failed my common test, very badly. i was rather emo the whole day. matt wanna meet me but he fall asleep and wan to meet me at 6 instead. nvm, he came late. WTH! den it was raining damn heavily and all. girls looked at me in a wierd manner lyk i was some freak and all.
this week has totally sucks. i nvr wan another week lyk tat again. not a single good thing happened. my birthday is next weds. it is really close. i dun feel lyk celebrating or anything. cos i noe my birthday isnt something to be celebrate of.
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
12:10 AM
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oh finally exams r over and i really glad they r. now i m gonna relieve all my stress away man. hahaha. i did it by going to sentosa today. haha. i was the emcee for the thing. but emcee also boliao 1 la. basically ii was jus gathering everyone and making a fool outta myself. i tot i would really enjoy myself quite a bit but haiz, i think i don really enjoyed myself pretty well.
firstly, the program start way way way late from scheduled. lyk 3 to 4 hrs behind the scheduled time. wth? den the games i have explain it for the gamemaster. i m lyk jus the emcee but i almost did everything. so wadeva la. den the game is very messy and ppl jus kept talking among themselves nvr listen to instructions. it was very hot also. i burned my back very badly. actually it was alright but at the end of the program, i was so disappointed with both of my leaders. SO SO DISAPPOINTED. they r so not well-spirited. they lyk ruined the ending part man.
i saw with my own eyes tat thad was lyk so pissed off when luke tried to push him down the sea after everything. its not that he don have clothes to change or anything, but it is jus pure arrogance and pride. the worst thing is tat he lost his temper. although not everyone saw that, but i saw it with my own eyes. then zixin is so so much worst. just because we were waiting for someone den she walk off alone in front, she scolded us and lost her temper rite in front of the visitiors. wad a 'good' example of leader she is setting. i was on my way home, den i was thinking thru, and i noe why our grp nvr had any visitors for any events. it was because we have incompetent leaders and distorts God's anioting.
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
8:45 PM
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ell well well. this week has been a rather heavy week for me. although i stayed at home for almost everyday. good thing is i save money, bad thing is tat i damn bored at home. this week is holiday week but it is no relaxing holiday for me man. it is a MUGGING week for me. after this holi, it is the common test. if we do not do well for the common test, we r gonna go back down to J1. which is none of us wanted to. so i cooped myself in the room everyday for morning til the night just to study. so far studying has been rather fruitful, but whether i can rem on the exam day or wad i studied is relevant is another question. i seriously hope i can do well for common test man. it is really a gauge not jus for the sch but for me as well to see how ready i m for A levels.
today i went to svc den i came back home immediately after tat, as i wanna continue my revision and i aint feeling very well as well. i didnt even had dinner with them and i rushed back. well i have to say, today's revision isnt really good. it was alright but aint perfect. maybe it is just tat i m not used to studying on sat as i NEVER DID. haha.
ok gotta pen off here, though i realise nobody reads my blog i still post entries as if ppl reads them. but oh wells, ahhahha.
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
10:08 PM
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i seriously am feeling so so bored and emo tat i have to blog. my younger cousin is now beside me playing my drums, he seriously got some natural talent man. he knows how to hold the stick without being taught and his rolls sounds pretty nice, and he is only 12 years old. anyway, tats not the point.
i feeling so lugubrious and depress man. in short, feeling emo. i realised tat around me, i dun have much friends. practically zero friends. a friend tat i can share my problems with, not some hi bye friends. my nature seriously dun allow me to make much friends. i m aggressive, solemn, unfriendly, anti social, insecure, introvert. its seriously hard for me to make friends man. so so hard. hard to make friends nvm, i realised i losing my current friends one by one. it is either they betrayed this friendship or its me who decided to break off this friendship. i totally hate this man. a sense of loneliness and helplessness just sweep into my heart. i so hate tat feeling. maybe i shld change, i have been trying hard but to no avail. i hope some miracle would happen in my life. i always see miracles happening in other ppl's life, but i dun see a miracle in my life at all... i really hope one would happen really really soon. i m feeling so helpless and desolated and i really need a miracle to boost, not more catastrophes and disasters and problems and mischaps.
i sometimes really wanna turn to BGR for friendship, but i realise tat is not wad i m after. it is a true brotherhood tat i require. a person tat i can talk crap and share my manly problems with.
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
11:24 PM
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AHHHH!!! a week has gone and i m so much closer to common test already!!! i already did my GP paper and it is really really hard. thank God it wasnt jus me who think it is hard. almost everyone say so. even our teacher told us beforehand tat it is hard. well this week wasnt so bad but the following week is not gonna be so good even it is holidays. i nid to study for the common test which is immediately after the holidays. i seriously nid to chiong for this common test. if i fail it, tats it, i m going back to J1. i seriously cannot afford to do so man. NO NO NO. i finally able to integrate into my new class and now u wan me to go back down to J1 and restart everything again? i seriously cannot take tat blow man. NO WAY. so no matter wad i must keep myself afloat at J2. cannot slack and i m gonna give in my all. EVERYTHING. NO CUTTING SLACK NO NOTHING. today and tml i jus relax abit and then the rest i chiong already. no rest. jus chiong and chiong and chiong and chiong.
this week's cg was so so better without the presence of zixin. i have nothing against her, but jsut tat without her presence everything seem so much better and cg was 1000X better when she isnt around. i believed everyone enjoyed the cg and for so long, i finally enjoyed cg. this has been the first time in awhile tat i nvr regret going to cg. HAHA. so as my deductions was rite, zixin has alwyas been tat cap of PJ's cg. but just tat i have no authority to do any shit nor anyone is listening to me. everyone is backing zixin up jus becos she is a leader. as i m just a small fry, so wad i say doesnt carry any weigh. HAHA.
so whatever, i just do my minimal part for my cg and tats it.
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
10:28 PM
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