i seriously am feeling so so bored and emo tat i have to blog. my younger cousin is now beside me playing my drums, he seriously got some natural talent man. he knows how to hold the stick without being taught and his rolls sounds pretty nice, and he is only 12 years old. anyway, tats not the point.
i feeling so lugubrious and depress man. in short, feeling emo. i realised tat around me, i dun have much friends. practically zero friends. a friend tat i can share my problems with, not some hi bye friends. my nature seriously dun allow me to make much friends. i m aggressive, solemn, unfriendly, anti social, insecure, introvert. its seriously hard for me to make friends man. so so hard. hard to make friends nvm, i realised i losing my current friends one by one. it is either they betrayed this friendship or its me who decided to break off this friendship. i totally hate this man. a sense of loneliness and helplessness just sweep into my heart. i so hate tat feeling. maybe i shld change, i have been trying hard but to no avail. i hope some miracle would happen in my life. i always see miracles happening in other ppl's life, but i dun see a miracle in my life at all... i really hope one would happen really really soon. i m feeling so helpless and desolated and i really need a miracle to boost, not more catastrophes and disasters and problems and mischaps.
i sometimes really wanna turn to BGR for friendship, but i realise tat is not wad i m after. it is a true brotherhood tat i require. a person tat i can talk crap and share my manly problems with.
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
11:24 PM
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