AHHH! its been rather a while since i posted an entry. had been rather busy and stuff. J2 workload and stress levle is catching up on me man. i start to have those heavy eyebags under my eyes man. well this week has been rather normal but mentally i was rather attacked.
in school, through out the week there has been ppl insulting me, saying tat i dumb and all. it really affected me alot. my ego was damn bruised. on 1 day, i emoed for no reason at all. ZZZ. den i got a feeling tat i am the one tat ppl hates after chris. i feel so lousy and my heart just hurts. my emotions were rather unstable this week. i go and buy 4D i dunno why. so random and u noe wad, no number i bought came out. not even close. feel so pissed and annoyed. maybe i am not cut out to win such money. hahahaha.
thank God thruout this week of torment and emotional crisis, i always have comforting touch from him. though i dun feel it very tangibily, but i somehow noe at least He is doing something:)today i saw her looking at me intently. and i deliberately looked back at her for as long as she looked at me. hahahahaha. MAYBE SHE IS THE ONE. I DUNNO. hahhahahha. today sermon was pretty great. it really inspire me to use my giftings to really serve the KINGDOM to the best tat i can. whatever i am given, i wanna use it to glorify the King. one sentence Michael said really touched my heart:' God died to give us the best gifts that He can ever give, the best way to thank Him, is to use these gifts to tell the others about what He has done for us'. this really inspire me alot and i couldnt wait to serve in the worship ministry. in the past, i think tat it is pretty cool to do so, but now i have a passion to do so. so God would You continue to aniot me with better skills and better timing so tat i can serve the church to the best tat i can. AMEN.
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TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!1 hahahha. well this week finally was a average week man. the past few weeks was rather bad or rather good. not balanced at all. haha. well my bdae was rather over already man. and i only received a pathetic 1 present from sheila. but haiz. nvm, haha. i m secure in the LORD. i think. hahaha. this week has been a rather hectic week. i slp at around 11 plus everyday and i wake up at lyk 6++. today is especially early, i woke up at 6 and i reachd sch at 7. haha. but it was rather fruitful. i studied the bible and i believe my relationship with God has improved. everyday without fail, no matter how tired i m, i will still do my quiet time and read at least 1 chapter. now as thad goes to the army, i will have new shepherd and i will have new sheeps as well. well i dunno whether i am up to the task anot, but i noe i will give my best even my limitations r rather alot since i m J2 and i didnt really do pretty well for common test. i reallly nid extra time to study and less time in the ministry and play and all. my sat is also burnt man. i cant believe it. finally, my good friend CLIFFORD, has retained, i m so gonna miss him. although we have been friends for jus a while, but it was great being your friend man. but life still continues. i have completed the song, 1st draft. hope u guys would lyk it:)
THE ROCKER SHREDS. has posted on
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i have forgotten to blog and i cant blog on friday and i m now finally blogging at sat nite when i can find time. this week has been a really special wekk. because it is my BIRTHDAY WEEK!!!!! YEAH!!! let me just blog about my birthday.
weds was the actual day of my bdae. it was a rather short day. i tot i was gonna have a boring bdae tat i would spend at home sleeping and all, but instead, my classmates suprise me wit such a bang. i was so so touched. they sang the song the loudest as they can, they only gather together as a class to celebrate someone's bdae only the 2nd time, and the fact tat i was only their classmates for 3 mths plus and they did such thing for me, i was seriously overwhelmed and touched. at nite i went out with my S12 ppl. well it wasnt really fun as i spent the most money even when i was the bdae boy. but nvm, haha. i think i rather enjoyed myself.haha
thurs my cg celebrated for me. i tot they forgotten or something but they didnt. they have a big birthday cake for me and all. it was rather well prepared.:) thanks.
on sat, which is just now, sanji recelebrated my bdae as he thinks i didnt have a good bdae celebration on weds. it was really good fun man. i seriously enjoyed myself and he treat me billy bombers and movies. thank God for him and those who came. i really had alot of fun. thank you.
thru this bdae i also noe how much i mean and value to the ppl around me. from the presents and cards i received and the encouragements from ppl. i noe how much i mean to them. so far i have not received any presents. to me my love language is gifts. so no presents i feel tat ppl dun love me or something lyk tat. but maybe it is just me being oversensitive or wad. but that is just wad i feel. so i hope i will received alot of presents soon. i don mind belated presents. haha. i jus nid to have some physical recognition. HAHAH. i m lyk tat la. haha
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