AHHH! its been rather a while since i posted an entry. had been rather busy and stuff. J2 workload and stress levle is catching up on me man. i start to have those heavy eyebags under my eyes man. well this week has been rather normal but mentally i was rather attacked.
in school, through out the week there has been ppl insulting me, saying tat i dumb and all. it really affected me alot. my ego was damn bruised. on 1 day, i emoed for no reason at all. ZZZ. den i got a feeling tat i am the one tat ppl hates after chris. i feel so lousy and my heart just hurts. my emotions were rather unstable this week. i go and buy 4D i dunno why. so random and u noe wad, no number i bought came out. not even close. feel so pissed and annoyed. maybe i am not cut out to win such money. hahahaha.
thank God thruout this week of torment and emotional crisis, i always have comforting touch from him. though i dun feel it very tangibily, but i somehow noe at least He is doing something:)today i saw her looking at me intently. and i deliberately looked back at her for as long as she looked at me. hahahahaha. MAYBE SHE IS THE ONE. I DUNNO. hahhahahha. today sermon was pretty great. it really inspire me to use my giftings to really serve the KINGDOM to the best tat i can. whatever i am given, i wanna use it to glorify the King. one sentence Michael said really touched my heart:' God died to give us the best gifts that He can ever give, the best way to thank Him, is to use these gifts to tell the others about what He has done for us'. this really inspire me alot and i couldnt wait to serve in the worship ministry. in the past, i think tat it is pretty cool to do so, but now i have a passion to do so. so God would You continue to aniot me with better skills and better timing so tat i can serve the church to the best tat i can. AMEN.
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