today is youth day, and i went out with my SG friends. man i dare say they are a bunch of knowledgable ppl and zai in studies man. i feel so small beside them man. OMG. i feel so old too. i m the oldest there. goodness. went and eat sushi tei, it was my first time there and i really felt awkward when the rest has come to such places b4 where i haven. then they started talking abt some stuffs tat i really have no clues abt. even the name of the food i have trouble understanding. for example they talked abt this brand which i have no idea and the rest are going, ' ya OMG!! it s a very good brand', 'ya i lyk it very very much!!!' den i tot to myself, has church made me lost connection with the world? i ponder abt this qn for the whole outing and i have no ans to it. i feel so loser just now. completely. i aint getting much outta the church also, and i m contributing more than i receiving. Is this church just a scam? i really dunno. the church hiecharchy is so strong tat it starting to irks me. the politics inside it? HAH! dun talk abt it. i was drumming just now and i m kinda losing my touch to it, i cant feel the beat and i cant find good grooves anymore. i asked God to develop my gifts, not deteoriate it. i m in kinda in a puzzled state man.
I ask God sincerely to open up my eyes and see things properly. i tot He say we shall be the head and not the tail? how come i felt i m at the tail?? God, if you are real, would to speak to me in my dreams tonight. thank you.
As for whoever is reading my blog rite now, i wont tell u much....
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